it was my 29th birthday before a few days and 4th birthday after my marriage. and things have changed drastically since the first ever birthday celebrated with my fiance (now husband).
may be back then i was special, and no matter how the situation was, he would make efforts to make me feel special.
first gift was and heart pendent and necklace.. how romantic.. :) .. my friends were like .. wowwwww .. and so was I.. all awestruck and happily surprised coz it was very much unlike him.. :)
then.. a birthday, just before our wedding.. we had to look for the house to move in after we get married.. and it was chaos with loads of work in the office, and house hunting after office and , all the preparation for wedding, honeymoon planning.. and what not... and still i was happily surprised with the kind of gift i recieved.. :) .. a wonderful spa session after office to make me feel fresh and special.. :) :) .. though, i shouted a lot for spending soo much money on that when we were in a very tight pocketed situation but i just felt soo happy inside for being pampered and loved and cared by my would be husband.. and felt so lucky as well...
and here comes the 4th birthday after my marriage.. with same house hunting problem.. but this was totally different .. that all the previous birthdays.. may b i m no more a special person in his life.... may b i m just a wife, who would understand how bad the situation was, as always.. the morning started with shouts for tea and breakfast.. atleast a small gesture of making tea and breakfast for me in the morning would have made me feel good about myself.. and atleast once a year he could do that..
i just feel so much taken for granted .. that if he does my job like preparing milk for our son in the night, he expects appreciation thousand times without appreciating me for doing the same job daily , even once. ..
may b its because, i m at home taking care of our son and no more working or going outside, i tend to pay more attention to these basic problems.. but the problems do exist.. and seems there is no solution to them except just ignoring them.. may b i should accept that with time, the marriage tends to get dull .. and things never remain same.. even for just 1 day in a year, i cant be felt special.. and no matter what.. i can't escape the life in kitchen..
may be back then i was special, and no matter how the situation was, he would make efforts to make me feel special.
first gift was and heart pendent and necklace.. how romantic.. :) .. my friends were like .. wowwwww .. and so was I.. all awestruck and happily surprised coz it was very much unlike him.. :)
then.. a birthday, just before our wedding.. we had to look for the house to move in after we get married.. and it was chaos with loads of work in the office, and house hunting after office and , all the preparation for wedding, honeymoon planning.. and what not... and still i was happily surprised with the kind of gift i recieved.. :) .. a wonderful spa session after office to make me feel fresh and special.. :) :) .. though, i shouted a lot for spending soo much money on that when we were in a very tight pocketed situation but i just felt soo happy inside for being pampered and loved and cared by my would be husband.. and felt so lucky as well...
and here comes the 4th birthday after my marriage.. with same house hunting problem.. but this was totally different .. that all the previous birthdays.. may b i m no more a special person in his life.... may b i m just a wife, who would understand how bad the situation was, as always.. the morning started with shouts for tea and breakfast.. atleast a small gesture of making tea and breakfast for me in the morning would have made me feel good about myself.. and atleast once a year he could do that..
i just feel so much taken for granted .. that if he does my job like preparing milk for our son in the night, he expects appreciation thousand times without appreciating me for doing the same job daily , even once. ..
may b its because, i m at home taking care of our son and no more working or going outside, i tend to pay more attention to these basic problems.. but the problems do exist.. and seems there is no solution to them except just ignoring them.. may b i should accept that with time, the marriage tends to get dull .. and things never remain same.. even for just 1 day in a year, i cant be felt special.. and no matter what.. i can't escape the life in kitchen..
